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[Dec. 20th, 2007|07:34 pm] |
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I miss my family.. damn holidays.. dont get me wrong.. i love the holidays but.. it makes you realize just how much you miss your family.. when you cant do anything with them.. damn holidays.. damnit.. i miss my family |
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[Aug. 8th, 2005|10:15 pm] |
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| | type o negative - summer breeze | ] |
Why did I have to fall for someone who doesnt believe in love anymore |
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[May. 31st, 2005|09:20 pm] |
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you guys have got to check out this website.. this is great.. i know i'm a horrible person for thinking this.. but i found it funny..
www.savetoby.com |
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[May. 12th, 2005|01:14 pm] |
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totally stolen from
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) gespenst
I want anyone and EVERYONE who reads this to post in here something they would like to do with me someday.
Then post this in your journal to find out what people want to do with you.
now to see if anyone does this. |
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[Apr. 28th, 2005|08:33 pm] |
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| | none ... talking to gespenst | ] |
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| in my pants |
[Apr. 21st, 2005|08:25 pm] |
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| | random shit | ] |
Put your playlist on random, write down some songs, add "in my pants" to the end.
1.) the temptations - my girl in my pants
2.) ministry - jesus built my hot rod in my pants
3.) cream - white room in my pants
4.) jackyl - locked and loaded in my pants
5.) chris isaac - baby did a bad bad thing in my pants
6.) marilyn manson - the beautiful people in my pants
7.) alice in chains - rooster in my pants
8.) gwar - sexacutioner in my pants
9.) the guess who - no sugar tonight in my pants
10.) the toadies - do you want to die in my pants |
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[Apr. 16th, 2005|09:12 pm] |
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| |  a lil tipsy | ] |
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| | CLASSIC ROCK.. I THINK.. | ] |
</a></strong></a>gespenst and I .. have decided something.... ,,
WE LIKE BOOZE!!!!!!! |
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| *scream* |
[Apr. 11th, 2005|08:55 pm] |
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| |  irritated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | no sugar tonight - the guess who | ] |
so i was all horny and was set on jumping my boyfriend tonight, when i see that i have a missed call.. its an elder from the kingdom hall ( what most ppl call a church) wanting to talk to me.. they wont give up.. and it doesnt help my mom and dad are making that worse.. i told them i would talk to the "elders" when i was ready, not because i'm not sure i want to leave the religion, but because i want every last thing out of mom and dad's before i talk to them.. i'm sorry but if my 'rents are going to stop talking to me once i'm " disassociated " then i want my stuff out first.. i would like to think that wouldnt be that hard to comprehend. but i guess it is, considering mom wont leave me alone about talking to them. argh.. i'm sick of this bullshit. i just think it'll be ever weirder if i was allready disassociated. why is that so hard to understand.i'v been in an odd mood today anyways.. this really didnt help. *sigh* oh well.. what can you do.. its parents.. they think it would be better to not talk to me.. because hopefully it'll make me go back to the religion, obviously they dont know me very well, if they did they would know thats not going to happen.. i didnt leave so i could do "bad" things.. i left because of dif, religious beliefs..
i cant condone anything that would make you stop talking to your family because you dont believe the same way.. i'm sorry its not going to happen..
maybe one day we all can grow up and move past this.. I hope,
...I miss my family... |
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[Mar. 20th, 2005|07:08 pm] |
cellspacing='0' width='600'><tr><td> </td><td> You scored as Satanism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Satanism! Before you scream, do a bit of research on it. To be a Satanist, you don't actually have to believe in Satan. Satanism generally focuses upon the spiritual advancement of the self, rather than upon submission to a deity or a set of moral codes. Do some research if you immediately think of the satanic cult stereotype. Your beliefs may also resemble those of earth-based religions such as paganism.
Satanism | | 88% | atheism | | 71% | agnosticism | | 71% | Islam | | 58% | Buddhism | | 50% | Judaism | | 46% | Hinduism | | 46% | Paganism | | 33% | Christianity | | 29% | </td></tr>
Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
created with QuizFarm.com</table> |
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| MORE BOREDOM |
[Mar. 19th, 2005|09:17 pm] |
I'll bet you expected this answer. You already knew
you were a DARK ANGELIC, didn't you? You
are similar to a demon but slightly different
in that you don't revel in evil...you revel in
pleasure. Your wings resemble an angel's but if
that's so then you are a Fallen Angel - your
love of sin caused you to be cast from the
Heavens. They are black as raven wings and are
nearly as dark as your desires. You are
faithless and love it - you believe there is no
Judgement Day to fear and so you can do what
you want! You have a refined concept of what is
sexy and a slightly chaotic sense of 'fun.' In
fact, you love chaos and view much of what you
do as a game. You are typically attracted to
those that will challenge your mind, power, and
wit...and are 'dangerous' people like you. It's
not unlikely that you are bisexual or at least
open to the concept, because you seek
excitement and passion everywhere and in
everyone. Chances are you have a special talent
for magick - you're a powerful being and you
know what you want. Like a Serpent of Eden you
like to try your powers of seduction and
manipulation, though your intent is rarely to
cause harm. You have a deep, dark sense of art
and/or poetry, because your mind is a deep,
dark place. While typically smirking, amused,
and sarcastic, you are capable of severe
revenge and a passion and intensity unrivaled
by any other. In your eyes life is for
enjoyment and pleasure - nothing else. If
you're not having fun in your own twisted way,
you're not happy. You are easily bored with the
vast majority of people. You are most likely
drawn towards the Gothic subculture and
probably adore Goth music, art, and style. Many
people look down on your seemingly careless
lifestyle and may even consider you 'slutty'.
Not true. You just know you're sexy and you're
damn proud of it. Dark Angels have an outlook
most like Satanists - loving sin and looking to
none but themselves for power. Congratulations!
You're my kindred spirit. As far as I'm
concerned - you know what life is REALLY about.
Have fun...Muahaha.
Trying to find source, will be posted ASAP.
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
brought to you by Quizilla |
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[Mar. 19th, 2005|09:00 pm] |
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| | drunk | ] |
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| | IN FLAMES | ] |
Taken from Summystarz
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DRUNK
(X) I NEVER HAVE SMOKED POT
(_) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX
(_) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(X) I NEVER CRASHED A FRIEND'S CAR
(X) I NEVER BEEN TO JAPAN
(X) I NEVER RODE IN A TAXI
(X) I NEVER HAD ANAL SEX
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN IN LOVE
(_) I NEVER HAD SEX
(_) I NEVER HAVE HAD SEX IN PUBLIC
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DUMPED
(X) I NEVER SHOPLIFTED
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN FIRED
(X) I NEVER BEEN IN A FIST FIGHT
(_) I NEVER HAD A THREESOME
(X) I NEVER SNUCK OUT OF MY PARENT'S HOUSE
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN TIED UP (SEXUALLY)
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN CAUGHT MASTURBATING
(X) I NEVER PISSED ON MYSELF (not since i've been old enough to control my bladder)
(_) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(_) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN ARRESTED
(_) I NEVER MADE OUT WITH A STRANGER
(X) I NEVER STOLE SOMETHING FROM MY JOB
(X) I NEVER CELEBRATED NEW YEARS IN TIME SQUARE
(X) I NEVER WENT ON A BLIND DATE
(_) I NEVER LIED TO A FRIEND
(X) I NEVER HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER
(X) I NEVER CELEBRATED MARDI-GRAS IN NEW ORLEANS
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN TO EUROPE
(_) I NEVER SKIPPED SCHOOL
(_) I NEVER SLEPT WITH A CO-WORKER
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN FISTED AND/OR HAVE NEVER FISTED ANYONE
(X) I NEVER HAVE THROWN UP IN A BAR
(_) I NEVER HAVE PURPOSELY SET A PART OF MYSELF ON FIRE
(X) I NEVER HAVE EATEN SUSHI
(_) I NEVER HAVE DONE A STRIPTEASE
(_) I NEVER HAVE SEEN ANYONE HAVING SEX BEFORE MY EYES
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN TO A RAVE
(X) I NEVER SHOT HEROIN
(_) I NEVER HAD SEX IN THE BACKSEAT OF A CAR WITH SOMEONE DRIVING
(X) I NEVER STREAKED
(X) I NEVER SHOT A GUN
To play I never. Put an (X) in front of the things that you have never done before and a (_) on the things that you have done at least once. Add a "I NEVER" of your own. |
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[Mar. 16th, 2005|12:54 pm] |
Bacardi 151
Congratulations! You're 137 proof, with specific scores in beer (100) , wine (83), and liquor (95). |
| All right. No more messing around. Your knowledge of alcohol is so high that you have drinking and getting plastered down to a science. Sure, you could get wasted drinking beer, but who needs all those trips to the bathroom? You head straight for the bar and pick up that which is most efficient. |
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My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 81% on proof |
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You scored higher than 97% on beer index |
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You scored higher than 91% on wine index |
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You scored higher than 97% on liquor index |
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[Mar. 13th, 2005|08:04 pm] |
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| | type o negative - everyone i love is dead | ] |
i wander through the graveyard.. and wonder why i am not also resting here.. i want a gravestone of my own.. placed at my head where i lay.. carved on to it.. my name.. i wonder what else it would say.. if people would walk up to me.. and cry..would they miss me.. or just pass me by
well, my great g-ma died this morning.. i'm not really upset, she was allmost 99 yrs old.. she lived her life and now shes gone on.. i just hope my g-ma gets through this okay |
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| going to kill someone |
[Mar. 11th, 2005|09:03 pm] |
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| | sad | ] |
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| | chris isaac - baby did a bad bad thing | ] |
i hate family.. dont get me wrong my family comes first, but lately.. its getting fucking old.. first off, i have had a horrible couple days down to crying myself to sleep for the past three nights.. my great g-ma is dying their giving her two days to live, my g-ma is not doing well because of this.. one , because last week was the yr anniversary of my g-pa's death, now she's going to lose her mother this week.. and sunday would've been her wedding anniversary. she my grandma is a wreck right now. i no longer am of the same religion as my family (jehovah's wittness) they feel that since i'm no longer a wittness that when armageddon comes theres no hope for me. if they believed in hell i'd be going there.. keep in mind i have not been a wittness in about 2 1/2 yrs.. but in light of everything, i have been talked to about 4 times in the past three days about going back to the religion. i miss my family more than anything else. BUT, is living a lie that would change your life completely , is it worth doing to make your family happy. meaning giving up my boyfriend whom i love dearly ( and will hopefully marry) his family who, has taken me in as a part of the family including his g-ma that doesnt like anybody. plus losing my friends. ALL because they dont have the title of a jehovah's wittness. i lead the double life for about 4 yrs.. i did things that i dont want to admit to. but thats part of growing up. my parents like my boyfriend. in fact if they need anything at all they call me and my boyfriend ,, not my sister and her husband who are still wittnesses.. and i do it, because it means i get to see my parents.. i should not have to check and see if i'm allowed to go to a family function because i dont have the title of a wittness anymore.. i hate this.. i should not have to choose between my life and my family.. and when i talked to my g-ma today,, she pulled the low blow.. she said that my g-pa would be looking for me.. and my lil brother ( only lived a day) he would need me to help bring him up.. damnit why did she have to bring that up .. i'm sorry but i dont have the same beliefs as them.. one of my biggest complaints is exactly what i'm going through.. you should not have to give up a family momber because they dont have that title anymore.. or because they have a dif, view point on something.. i feel so completely alone right now. i miss my parents.. my g-ma.. my sister (who i was finally getting along with) this is shit. i'v talked about this before.. to friends.. but that just dont understand because they havent gone through it.. being a wittness is something completely in its own fucking world..and the one person that can begin to understand, doesnt care right now because she misses the guy shes trying to date. because she hasnt talked to him in a couple days. damnit i know i sound like a bitch right now. and that i'm being fucking selfish about my family.. about .. everything. but i lived a double life for so long so i wouldnt dissapoint my family. that, it just doesnt seem worth it. my brother isnt a wittness anymore either, and he went through all this many years ago.but he lives out of state and i do good if i get to talk to him once a month, i'v allready deceided that if i ever get married i'm having my brother give me away, it may sound really harsh.. but my parents are the ones choosing to not talk to me.yes i left the religion, but its their choice to dissown me. if it wouldnt mean leaving my boyfriend (the one person keeping me going right now) i would leave ohio,. i'v always wanted to.. but i'v gotten attached to someone now. something i said i wouldnt let happen. i wanted so much to be able to , when i have kids take them to my parents, show them their grandchildren. now i might be able to send them pictures. before that was never a thought. i never wanted kids. didnt want to settle down.. i wanted out of here.. but i met jason. now all those things i didnt want, i now do.. you have no idea how much it hurts that my friend is living here with us, that she has moved in here while i'm still living out of a duffel bag, i miss it being just me and him. i walk out to the tv room and their curled up on the couch. i know hes mine.. i know i dont have anything to worry about, but i love him so much i'm afraid of him finding something better. i would give anything to marry him. i want kids with him.. i want a baby. or then again.. i'd be happy with being actually moved in here. oh well.. the beer has kicked in now. so i'm think i'm going to go to bed or seomthing.. buhbye |
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[Mar. 5th, 2005|11:51 pm] |
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| | melancholy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | type o negative | ] |
so its been a really long time.. I'm no longer at my parents, though i'm not really moved out yet.. it has now been a yr since my grandpa's death.. i miss him alot.. i was his little girl.. things have been hard lately.. but that is life.. oh well.. things will calm down eventually.. they always do.. |
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[Apr. 17th, 2003|11:43 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | in flames | ] |
well.. les see where to start. i'm still at home.. big supris thre.. my car died so i had to get a new car instaed of moving out.. i'm working three jobs.. one of which though.. i love.. i just started my aprenticeship with a tattoo artist.. i'm having so much fun with it.. i'v always wanted to try it. i love to draw.. art is my life.. so basically.. i'm quite happy with it..and needless to say, i'v added to my collection of tattoos myself.. things with my parent.. are still pretty on the edge.. and they dont know about working at the tattoo shop.. i'm hoping whn i tell them that it wont send them overthe edge and that its the last straw and i'm out of there.. but who knows.. i'll find out when i get to that point. but well.. i gotta work in the morning.. just finished 16 hours of work.. sll.. needless to sa.. i'm a bit tired.. so i'll write more later..
night |
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[Feb. 12th, 2003|12:26 am] |
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| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | otep | ] |
wow.. its been a long time.. well i didnt get kicked out..im still a bad little child in my rents eyes.. but .. oh well.. i work two jobs.. bout 70 hours a week.. so reptty much.. nothing has changed.. xept for i should be moving out on my own finally in about two months.. hell yeah!! its about time.. i havent been working this much for nothing..oh and its snowing .. again.. it just wont stop.. i want spring!!! *grumbles about the weather more* wouldnt be so bad if i didnt have to drive 20 mins to work in the morning.. bah.. oh well.. anyways.. im tired.. have to work in the morning.. so.. i leave for now.. till next time.. peace out.. |
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| good bye for a while?? |
[Oct. 13th, 2002|11:55 am] |
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| | worried | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nailbomb-for fucks sake | ] |
well.. the shit has finally hit the roof.. well actually beyond that i believe.. i have told me rents that im moving out.. and that i am no longer going to be of our religion.. needless to say.. i need a place to move to very very fast.. cause i will be getting kicked out of my house.. i am so freaked out.. im leaving behind everything and everyone i'v grown up with.. everything i'v known.. my family.. all of it.. yeah.. time to be freaked out.. |
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